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+carine>> a puppy pic wit msg, happy birthday my dear fren.. i am here wishing u happy always and all the bset in ur future! tanjoubi omedetou gozaimsu!

+ying see >>a luv containing birthday wishes, happy birthday! wish u success, happiness and blessing wherever u go!

+jin li >> same as above (coz they're twins, ying c gonna kill me if she reads dis.. lol)

+joyce >> harlow, happy birthday 2 u. hehe

+hua chyi >> a pig pic wit da msg, happy birthday 2 u! happy 4eva

+wee hong >>eh if not mistaken, today ur birthday rite... wei, happy birthday

+ying c >> a snoopy wit cake, here i cum again! hahaha, cake delivery.. send another 1 4 u..

+sok kuan >>happy (dunno how many happys' la..., hahaha) birthday to u, wish u get good result in stpm..

+amoot >> amoi syg! hepi 19th bday! may all goods things come 4tune 2 u!!neva give up in everyything u do n may god bless u.. take care \! luv u, miss u, muaxx

2 many 2 continue...
nx time la ok ... hehe

+jia ai
=picture msg of happy birthday a bear
+hanis hamid
=pic msg of happy birthday wit a monkey face
+wawa
=happy besday susan! sweet 9teen.. kali ni tak silap dah.. heheade party ke esok? ke celebrate ngan ehem.ehem! Anyway, gud luck in everything.. and forget menot,my dear.
+sze thin
=picture msg wit a bear
+sherry
=da whole birthday song; cayang ko! muax2! take care n all ur wish come true
+mytaj
=amoi... =happy birthday..!! = :-)
+por xiang
=happyhappyhappy (44 x of happy) birthday 2 u!coz 4 april ma.. gd luck 4A in stpm
+victoria
=msg wit a bear
+iylia
=hepi burfday...
+pei ying
=hey sweetie! happy 19th birthday! may your b'daybe special in everyway n may all ur days b filled wit laughters n happiness!! hugs!
+seok hoon
=hye!hapi birthday!may ur mish cum true! all da best k.duin so lazy,muz study hard k!ka yau!
+beng kim
=hey happy birthday gurl! All the best.. have fun.. muakks...
+wendy
=hey.. Happy birthday gal! wish u all d best of luck in future.. dun 4get me lo.. frenz 4eva
+ai lee
=happie birthday susan! hope u have a happie day da whole day!
+chay lun
=hey mei mei i know everyone send special n creative msg 2u.. buti hav no idea, so.. hehehe.. only can advise u 2 bcum mature.. 19 years old d bcum big sis liao.. dun play play liao.. n dun call me small child d cuz i more mature den u... hahah.. happy bday 2u.. wish u all the best n good luck in stpm... very late liao so finish reading yr frenz wishin msg faster go 2 sleep k... goodnite...
+ck
=oi, i tried 2 kol u 2 wish u epi bday but x dapat la my dear. nway. epi bday, muah
+tan why kit
=pic msg wit bear

p/s- 2 b continue.. lazy 2 type.. still got a lot.. tata

i'm wasting most of my time here ryte in front of da pc again... i do really need 2 brush up all my studies.. less play, more attention 4 my studies. i'm way far back, if i keep on with my old attitude, then i will need 2 say farewel 2 japan, i'm sure dad win't allow me 2 immigrate there. i must be strong n tuff n b more independent. yesterday was kindda tiring. i woke up at 7am 2 prepare myself 4 bio class n i hav my m3 class on da afternoon. then ryte afta my m3 class, i went ova 2 da saloon 4 hair treatment. back home, it's already 6pm. i took a nap n woke up after tht 2 take my shower as i'm goin out wit a bunch of fren later. we went out at 8pm n headed 2 da hong kong restaurant. we went in n even seated down there. but da sorroundings there seems 2 b weird, it's not really suitable 4 us youngsters 2 dine there coz it's more 4 a family dine in restaurant. without shame, we stood up n walk out of da restaurant. ryte after we stepped out of it, all of us burst out in luff.. damn shameful but alan claimed tht it's normal.. haha.. then we plan 2 go 2 asia cafe in subang. off we go, but d other guy's car (i can't remember his name thoough =x) is heading 2 sumwhere else.. ring, ring, c.yen's hp cried out.. "hye, we're heading 2 da pj's A&W. hell , me n jin li was like huh??? no A&W in klang aa? siao 1.. haha, then we went 2 da pj's A&W. we enter da fast food restaurant n started 2 queue up.. dididi.. after a few minutes, we walk out from da fast food restaurant again coz non of us wanna hav A&W unless da js touch down guy from germany ( i still can't remember his name tough,lol) then we went 2 ss2, while waiting 4 d other frens, me,jin li, c.yen n shin jie went 2 da 100 yen shop. when they arrived, we proudly stroll in from d north n ended up in da south entrance, with no success 2 4 a perfect dinner.finally, we decided 2 go 2 mongkok's cafe, seems 2 be beautiful outside but hell, da food sux! n i mean it. ryte after finishing our dinner there, we headed back 2 klang n reaches my hse at around 11.15pm. they stayed in my hse 2gamble till around 12.45am, hahaa. i was kindda hungry tht time, thx 2 p.siang 4 da roti canai delivery! arigatou ne!! 1 more thing, i was damn damn happy 2 receive salo's pic from mika... i'd been waited 4 it 4 such a long time.. salo is a puppy, damn cute. i bet everyone will luv it when u c it. thx a bunch 2 mika although he's kindda cheng', hhmpphh... haha, js jk. alryte, guess tht i shud really stop here... tc n mwaXxx`

happy chu 11!! it's da 11th day of cny, time do really flies... so damn fast. i'd did queit lotsa things b4 & during da cny. dis is da 1st year i celebrated cny wit my hsk frens... we visited each other from houses 2 houses... tht was sumthing really great. on da 5th day of cny, (if i'm not mistaken) i'd made my finale decision 2 throw away my valentine plush toy dog, birry.. guess tht i shud really let go ryte afta i'd broke up wit him... birry had accompanied me 4 da past 2 year plus, if it is still with me, by dis valentines, it wud be da 2nd year... frankly, i can't get used 2 sleep without hugging it but now i'd learn 2 sleep wothout it, it do seems weird at 1st but i shud b tuff, past wud always b past. i was kindda surprise actually 2 made tht move 2 throw birry away 2 da klang river , brooy accompanied me there n without regret, down i threw birry... farewell huh! my heart do aches n i dun hav da guts 2 even glance at it when birry reaches da water surface.. i'll still stick wit my decision, no turning back.. in less than 1 week, couples around da world wud be celebrating valentines, guess tht dis wud b my 2nd year of celebrating valentines alone,,, but i dun mind at all... lol... i'd received 4 stalks of roses yesterday n 1 of it is in yellow in color,,,, darn, yellow rose means game ova 4 a relation... da fren of mine is trying 2 insult me it seems huh... who cares.. hahaha... i'm very tired now after came back from skool., i guess i shud go n take a nap as i'll be having a nyte class later.. c ya n tadaa~~

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i'm back!!! erm, after i'd abandoned dis page 4 kiondda long time ago.. i noe i'm bad but yet, i won't admit it... wuhoo... erm, 2 months of holidays, i did nothing!!! it's like so fast, i do really agree tht time do fly n flow n flip very very fast... last week, my hong kee fren were her with me 4 x-mas celebration.. she's her from 21/12 till 26/12 n yet, she's back 2 her motherland now... i'd took her 2 various places, mopre on shopping n urban life stuff but less scenic n historic plasces as i dun noe any in malaysia besides da musuem n melacca, but i din bring her there as i'm not interested.. hahaha, it must be boring there... i took her 2 petaling street, genting highlands (it's bored there if compared 2 ocean park in hong kong, i admit it), klcc, stahill gallery, sunway pyramid 4 skating ---> wit nina,bai (i din c them 4 almost a year) n took sticker photo's too.. n so so on... she tried lotsa food.. hahha, n all da stuff she bought back hong kong is all malaysian junk food... i'll post sum of da pictures if i'm determine enuff 2 spend time here.. hahah.. erm, new year's resolution... too many man, i used 2 make lot's of resolution, but i ended up completing 0% of it.. wat a loser ryte.. hahah.. neway, hope year 2006 wud be betta, where da world wud b a betta place 4 everyone, peace.. i wanna be more n more hardworking (when wud dis resolution mission will b completed, i wonder.. lol) i wanna study n study, less outing, hang outs n yam char, less talk, less sleep, less play.. strive in my stpm examination n then further my studies in monash university (da uni tht i always wanna b there) n lastly, JAPAN!!!! i wanna immigrate there.... wwuuhhoo... wish me luck ya!!! mmuuaaxx... gotto kick my arse out of here, c ya n happy new year!!!!

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert.

During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the neardrowning, he wrote on a stone: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE .

The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone,why?"

The other friend replied "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engraveit in stone where no wind can ever erase it.

"LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND T O CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

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Are you a Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime?

Pay attention to what you read.After you read this, you will know the reasons.

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.When you figure out, which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON... It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered.And now it is time to move on.

People come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done.They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it!It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someoneWho doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newlyDivorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.

You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one...

me n syen 

me n xin rou 

sweet 

perfect! 

sshhh... 

sshh... 

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noe wat... i have no idea wat i shud put 4 da titile as i dunno weert to put... hahhaha, wat's in my mind actually??? erm??? wert? wert? hope sum1 wud really figure it out 4 me... lol... bout da new me in da new environment of being ere in form six... as a high skoolrian... but not a kusessian nemore... it's totally diff from my previous skool... i do really prefer it now, i'm really happy wit it... hehehe... when it cums 2 studies, ermm... i guess i have nothing 2 say as i'm still da blur cases... noeing nothing, wert am i studying or wat so eva.. i neva finishes my hw... exspecially my further m3... feeling kindda gulity actually as form 6 is not an easy situation... for a form 6 student, they shud really b extra hardworking... but i js can't manage it... i js can't be hardworking.... i'm still da old me, sleeping more than studying, playing exceeding than studying, chit chatting more than studying, hanging out more than studying.... i goes out every weekend wit a bunch of fren... n there won't be much time 4 me 2 revise but let's say i do have time, i won't study... wat a lazy me... hhmmmmm.... really hope i cud revolute myself asap.... while bout all my brand new frens in high skool, i do really LURVE them... they're simple terrific..... i lurve them ^_^ they roxxxx.... hehehehe.... easy goin n my whole skool day r full wit laughters... all guys n gals rox... i'm very famos among prefects in skool rite now... y????? hahaha, coz... erm... my skool rules r stupid.... we can''t tie any style for our hair style, only a pony tail wit either a black or white ribbon... no blue... hell, dis is rediculous man!!!! ls time in kusess, i can use any color of band i want, any style i want... now????? js a stupid pony tail, dun u think it's bored having a same hair style 5 times a week, 20 times a month????? damn it man, i really won't give a damn... n i was called by da dicipline teacher due 2 my hair style (i'm tieing my hair using a stick).... today, my name was written by da prefect coz my nail is long... hahahaha... everyday i kena la... apa mcm??? hahahah, still da same word, i won't give it a damn.... it's my life, no 1 can interrupt it.... buzz off... hahahhaa.... as long as i'm happy wit da way i am.... betta stop ere, feeling kindda sleepy... snoozing off soon.. tadaaa....

time do really "zoom" fast... it's really true tht time won't wait 4 us. erm...... didn't plan 2 write long today as i'm kindda tired although i'd slept for hours.. hahaha, i'l update soon bout my f6 skool's life where i met a numbers of fantastic frens.... buzzing off....

me again 

me n auni 

june2005 

bbq 

smiles 

fwens 

bbq nite 

lurve u guys 

in memories 

gerai class 

v intan (2004) stall 

mlm 1000 kenangan year 2004 

in memories 

bbq nite in kusess 

^_^ 

here goes..

T	Terrific
A	Amorous
N	New
S	Strange
U	Unforgettable
E	Eccentric
S	Square
A	Altruistic
N	Nutty

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hye...yesterday was our last day of orientation, it was totally a buussttt!!!! 1 word 2 describe, GREAT! totally, i really like my skool rite now.. maybe bcoz of da new surrounding n pupils... as a daily skool student, terrific... those seniors there r so sporting. this is wat happens, we juniors need 2 perform during da ls day of orientation... all seniors were down on da skool hall... almost every group of juniors got a "BBUUUHH" from seniors n they shouted like hell, it was like wow! so diff from kusess, my previous skool.i like it here... so, no regrets 4 me 2 reject da offer from banting matriculation! every of my fwen out ere gave me a warning 2 be serious as stpm is not an easy thing... i repeat, very tuff.... they were so afraid of me... hahaha, y does this happened? perhaps i never been serious when i'm in kusess ls time... i were so playful, hahahaah... fun huh! neway, i promise 2 try my best 2 be serious in studies n be extra extra hard working.... believe in me huh! today, we're devided into classes.. there's 10 classes altogether... 6 art stream classes n 4 science classes... i tought of taking physic n biology but i noe it's likr eerrgghhh... impossible, da scope is 2 wide either bio nor physic... yeah, i noe tht... my class consist of 47 students (tht's a big group!!) but 8 r goin 2 change 2 art stream as they're worried tht they can't cope with science stream.. let me tell u da situation of my class today... it was like so noisy... yeew, very da noisy i repeat.... i used 2 b very talkative ls time when i was in kusess, but now in my new skool, everyone tought tht i'm a very very quiet person.. hahaha 2 them... or shud i say i'd change????! perhaps... i am now more quiet now, i dislike 2 talk much, prefer 2 b silents.. some even tought tht i don't noe how 2 speak chinese... no no no, i do speak chinese,,,, ahhaahha......... my new classmate r all great, thumbs up 2 all of them, even guys there... they're all gentlemen! great.. but i still can't adopt wit da way of sitting n chit chatting wit any guys... i mean 2 be very close coz i'm not comfy wit tht.. sorry 2 -wooy- huh! i js can't talk much n erm... u shud understand.. it's not tht i'm not interested into guys, but not at this moment k... i'll js treat u like how i treat other guy... no xtra treaty huh! so, sorry! hahahaa.. u're a great guy, seriously (if u're reading this) got to go, wanna chat now... or else madec wud be like so pissed off!!! owh yeah, i got a postcard from kitty (my pen-pal from hong kong) from japan, she's having her vacation there.. thx a bunch!! hope u njoy urself there.... adious...

i started skool ls few days ago... at 1st, i tought tht new skool wit new environment do sucks.. but tht was totally wrong.. i shudn't mess my head up like tht... skool's great!! i finally have da chance 2 be a student again, not in a boarding skool student but a daily skool student which i really wanted 2 b since i were set 2 kusess. now we're having our orientation week, till nx wednesday. all juniors --> tht's us were required 2 wear a bee like costume which is my skool's custom. looks stupid n weird! at 1st, it's really uncomfy but now it's much more betta but still erggghhh.... each of us were given a foster n we guys need 2 find our own foster in da upper 6 block besides collecting more than 150 of signatures from teachers n seniors there... we were tricked n played a fool of... damn it but it's part of da reality... my foster was a guy, every senior there told me tht i'm lucky 2 have him as my foster as he's a great guy n yes, it's true... he helped me 2 asked 4 signatures from d other seniors n all i have 2 do is js follow by his back.... hahaha.... sum seniors were js playful.. they want me 2 sing or dance b4 they pen down their sign, but guess wat, so far i haven't do tht... hahah, all i do was js smile n smile n smile n lastly they gave me their signature.. whahaha... sum even admit tht they're r my foster at 1st n want me 2 say words which praise them looks great n sum even want me 2 say "i lurve u" hell, no way..... who they think they r?????????!!! hahaaaha.... no dooubt... i'm falling in lurve 2 b a student, seriously... i really enjoy it although i still need 2 wear skool uniform, white shirt n blue dress.. but i dun mind.... i even reject d matriculation last tuesday... at 1st, i wanted 2 go 2 matriculation badly n dad uses his "power" 2 obtain a place 4 me in matrix but now, i don't 1.. no no no... i want 2 b in high skool klg, my skool now... i like it n i njoy it.. really! i noe stpm is really tuff n i need 2 b very very hardworking... hope i won't b as lazy as when i were once upon a time in kusess.... wish me luck huh! signing off soon, times getting very late, almost 3 am... c ya!

Bukan niat untuk ku menipu
Pada dirimu
Jangan kau fikir beban hidupmu
Bila kau sedari cerita ku
Yang sedih itu
Semuanya palsu belaka
Bukan niat untuk ku mengelak
Menjauhkan muItu hanyalah rancangan ku
Pasti kau sedari
Seandainya bisa kau tahu
Ada udang di sebalik batu
Terlalu lamakah
Hubungan yang kita bina
Seperti kau tahu
Ku pasang dua
Bukannya mudah
Melakukan segalanya
Untuk pastikan
Semuanya rahsia
Di sini aku meluahkan
Di sana aku permainkan
Tapi kedua-duanya
Istimewa bagiku
Di sini membahagiakan
Di sana tersangatlah tampan
Sukarnya bagiku
Untuk melupakan keduanya
Antara dua....

Months have passed w/o giving us a chance to realize how fast it went by, nor what the hell were we doing with those leisure-vacancied time.

Were we re-evaluating ourselves? Or perhaps re-evaluating our family? Or You were just being snobbish, "kera sumbang", and keep youself in your room doing nothing but eat, sleep, tv, and sleep some more?

For a lot of us, from hostel schools, We have lost that precious years. The growing up years where adolescents will start to think, "Who do I want to be?" , "will I be like my mother?" , or "My teacher?", what kind of hairstyle? hairdo? MEdicure? Or wearing scarf? Should I be lanky? Priggish? Or Open and outgoing?


Those questions were asked when we were in hostel. And were influenced very much to our friends and teachers. The problem is that we didnt know our parents.

For instance, I didnt know that I cant say "No, Im not hungry" and run upstairs when my mum had cook dinner eventhough my bros and siss always does that. Not me.

Nor that I didnt know that my mum is so sensitive that she do not enjoy my humour anymore. But forces me to enjoy hers.

We have lost that silver years. And now its time to redeem them.Make the full use of them but it's time to flap my wings again. Another hostel life and I was just starting to know my father!

All in all, I would like to apologize if I have cause any ill-feelings to anyone and best of luck with the bless of god.If U know you can do it, I bet you will.Dont lose faith and hope cause They're the keys to all success.

RUMORS!!!!!

Saturday steppin' into the club
And it makes me wanna tell the DJ
Turn It Up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

[BRIDGE:]
Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

[CHORUS:]
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (What?)

I've gotta say respectfully
I would like it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

[BRIDGE:]
Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
But not the way you want me to

[CHORUS:]
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind (my mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)

I'm tired of rumors (rumors)
Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)

What they (follow) me
Why can't they (they they they-they-they) let me live

Take this for just what it is

[CHORUS:]
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

whussup guys??! it's been ages i stopped blogging ere.... lazy n very very lazy, tht's me... erm special incident/stuff happened all this while, but still sleep seems 2 b very important for me, i repeat, VERY IMPORTANT>>>> even my 2 weeks collogue know tht i'm a sleepy head, can't live without sleep.... hahaha, n i simply admit it! remembering i can even eat while sleeping when i'm in my secondary skool life, tht's simply crazy i noe.... yea rite.... life in boarding skool makes me tired, very tired ----> but my other friends don't seem 2 b like me, eat n sleep at da same time, but who cares huurh... hahahaha... actually i'm tired, i mean tired not bcoz tht i don't have enuff sleep of perhaps over sleep, i'm tired with my life. My family do always wan me 2 follow all their plans, including my future. I can't even have da chance 2 use those public transportation, only without their knowledge, kindda stu*** rite??!! i know they care 4 my safety, but it's too over protective, too much!!!! u c, i'm considering of taking up biotech as my degree course in monash university but dad wants me 2 tak business. nx, i told him tht i wanna go over 2 monash n guess wat??? he asked me who else is going over 2 monash n i say no one coz most of my fren ended up in taylors college taking SAM (south australian matriculation). Dad doesn't agree me going over 2 monash as there's no one else there... he xpect sumone 2 b with me all da time, even i'm 18 now... in his mind set, i'm only a liltle gal.. but hey, did he noe tht if he kept acting da way he is now, i won't grow up n have da chance 2 explore da outside world???? my bros r da same... they don't allow me 2 go sumwhere else far2 away from hse 2 pursue my studies... n noe wat fu***** reason they gave?? i'll play n not b serious in my studies, i'll go clubbing n i'm easily influetteeeeeddd..... coming man, give me sum space 4 me 2 breath!!!! forget bout it. i'll settle it up all by myself... i'll have a nice talk wit dad bout taking CBU (a canadian matriculation)... i'll argue n fight 4 my sake... hhmmmm, nx thing which drives me crazy is da guys out here.... i'm not interested wokay!!!! i wanna study 1st, i wanna prove 2 my brothers i can b serious at times, exspecially 4 my studies, my future! i'll prove it, js wait!

wow.... it's been weeks i didn;t blog... lazy ler......... guess wat, me gonna learn sumthing new... i don't noe wat class is tht, some sort like aerobic + dancing class. starting soon... can't wait.... ermm.... no idea wat to sputter ere... maybe tonite... signing off............

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You Know You're Malaysian When...
You complain about the quality of the pirated DVD you just purchased. "What, RM10 for DVD5?! Aiyah, boss ... sound no good, cheaperlah ..."You're willing to consume sambal petai and durian and gladly suffer the bloating and wind-breaking incidents.You're exceedingly polite to the Mat Sallehs but you slag your own kind. "Hello, sir. Why don't you sit here, it’s got the best view of the city skyline." But, "Aunty-ah, your table is over there next to the kitchen."You order Maggi goreng and fried chicken, complain about how oily the food is, and then proceed to finish it anyway.You love to talk about food. You're already thinking about what to have for dinner while eating lunch. "I'm stuffed. What shall we have for dinner?"You dive into a communal-style meal the moment the dish lands on the table only to hesitate at the last morsel of food on the serving dish. There are two possible explanations for this: the first is the pai seh (embarrassed) factor, while the other is the myth that the person who eats the last piece will be a spinster.You hit the accelerator the moment the first drop of rain hits your windshield. "Alamak, it's going to rain. Sure traffic jam one. I'd better drive faster."You seize the opportunity to make a U-turn anywhere ... especially where there is a sign telling you not to. Well, so long as the cops aren't in sight.You feel a burning desire to send text messages and even have the gall to give your friend a blow-by-blow account of the movie to your friend on the handphone — during the screening of the movie. "Okay, now that girl Lizzie is impersonating an Italian singer; she so doesn’t look Italian ..."You forsake your loved ones for the all-important four letter-word: S-A-L-E. "Sorry, mum, I can't take you to Aunt Mary’s because I have to go to MidValley before the crowd." You’re also more than happy to be part of the insane traffic jam that forms around malls during weekends and sale periods.11. Reality shows Akademi Fantasia and Malaysian Idol dictate your social life. "What, no TV at the mamak? Count me out — I'm staying home. Rinie needs my support."You pepper every sentence with lah. "No-lah, I can't see you today-lah. I have to study-lah. You know-lah, the prison warden aka mak is watching me like a hawk"You fail to function normally without your daily dose of teh tarik and nasi lemak.You have owned at least one Proton in your lifetime. Cheap, cheap. That is until you start to make enough dough to buy that Honda you've been salivating over.You slow down at an accident site to take down the car number plate, but won't step out of your car to help — the victim could be a robber!You'd rather park your car along the main road outside the mall, where there's a yellow line, rather than pay RM1 to park inside where there are adequate bays.You plead, bat your eyelids and relate a sob story to the officer at the town council office to let you off the hook (or reduce the amount considerably) for the fine you incurred when you parked your car on the double line.You make an appointment for 10am and conveniently show up a half hour late — Malaysian time, what ...You pop open the wet tissue packet at the Chinese restaurant by squeezing the trapped air to the top of the packet before proceeding to smash your fist into it. The louder the pop the better.You greet your friend / neighbor / acquaintance on the street with "How are things?" or "Have you eaten?" or better yet, by stating the obvious: "Went to market ah?"Ramlee burger is the "piece de resistance" of your growing-up-years cuisine.You catch all major televised events at the mamak.You have roughly six meals a day (breakfast, mid-morning tea, lunch, afternoon tea, dinner and supper). Then there's the snacking — keropok ikan, pisang goreng, muruku, jam tarts and the like.You get the whole family dressed to the nines, jump into the car and head for the minister's open house — and ask for styrofoam boxes and plastic bags to tar pau food.Your accent and language style vary according to the race of the person you are conversing with. You've got a friendly disposition. Smiles are abundant and your "Apa khabar?" is warm and sincere.You exclaim loudly how expensive everything is, even though the items may in fact be going for a steal. "Wah! So expensive, ah? Hak sei ngor (Scare me to death)!"You dig deep into your pockets to contribute to the latest appeal for donations in the newspapers.You "dis" our country all the time, but as soon as something good happens (like winning the Thomas Cup), you morph into a proud Malaysian.You never travel abroad without a bottle of chilli sauce, or sachets which you can sneak into restaurants.You're proud to be Malaysian - and you pass these jokes on to all your Malaysian friends!

Artis : DIA FADILA
Lagu : Andai

Cinta kau lafaz dulu
Dari jiwa hatimu
Terbukti kata
Tiada duanya
Aku mengharap kasihmu
Tiap purnama yang sepi berlalu
Aku dambakan kehadiranmu
Memegang jemari
Memeluk indah ku
Moga terpanar jiwamu
Dalam doa pilu
Fahami hatiku
Aku terluka aku merindu
Masih ada cinta ku menanti
Sinar cahaya
Korus:
Andainya ada cinta
Diruangan nalurimu kasih
Andainya ada rindu
Di lembaran sentuhan hatimu
Aku menanti aku menanti di dalam gelisah
Ohh kasih
Telah kau hancurkan kota ini
Kota cinta milik berdua
Yang kini sepi segala
Dalam doa pilu
Fahami hatiku
Aku terluka aku merindu
Masih ada cinta
Ku menanti sinar cahaya
Korus:
Andainya ada cinta
Diruangan nalurimu kasih
Anda ada rindu
Dilembaran sentuhan hatimu
Andai ada sayang
Kau janjikan untuk kita nanti
Aku menanti¡­ aku menanti di dalam gelisah
Bridge:
Dalam hati aku menyintai
Sepenuh hatiku seikhlas dulu
Andainya ada harapan yang nyata
Pasti akan kucurahkan semua
Korus II:
Andanya ada cinta
Diruangannya nalurimu kasih
Andai ada rindu
Dilembaran¡
­ yeah¡­ yeah..yeah
Andai ada cinta
Di ruangan nalurimu kasih
Anda ada rindu
Dilembaran sentuhan hatimu
Andai ada cinta
Di ruangan nalurimu kasih
Andai ada rindu
Dilembaran sentuhan hatimu
Andai ada sayang
Kau janjikan
Untuk kita nant
iAndai ada cinta diruangan
Naluri¡­.. (faded)

hye... such a long long time i stop blogging... hehehe, don't have da momentum to blog 4 da previous day.. actually, i don't hav it today either but i js wanna express it out.. i don't noe wat's goin on wit myself... depression or out of scence or perhaps stressed out or... i don't noe... frankly speaking, i hav not smile a kindda pass few days... i js can't remember when's da ls time but at ls, i smiled js now... while playing "volley ball: or shud i call it as monkey-monkey.. wit my liltle cousins... altogether 7 of us... jermaine was da cutest.. he's only 6 years old but hell he's damn mischiviousszzz..... cute but annoying... hehehhe, dat's da kids world n life... so naive... noeing nuthing yet living happily... wish i cud b da same like im... nothing 2 worry bout.. but i noe tht's impossible.. yesterday was kindda embarrassiiiinnnggg... i was like, oowwhhh, y am i crying 2 him???? js can't resist it... plz... tht shudn't happen, no ... no way... told myself, tht i shud not care so much nemore rite, it's my fault... so, no 1 2 be blame on but myself.. i told him everything yesterday,... i mean wat actually was hidden in myslef 4 da past month after my brake off... n i promise 2 myself n also him, tht it wud b my ls time i'll cry 4 my relation... no more... i'll keep my words... we'll can only b fwens but not close fwens... tht's sumthing ridiculous 4 a x couple 2 be a very close fwens.. if u were me, am sure u'll agree wit me as we r all human being.. i'll learn 2 handle my emotion n also my life... i js wanna stop all dis... i'll not think bout it nemore.. hopefully, i can handle it smoothly... i js wanna pay my fullest attention in my study life so tht i won't regret in future... tomorrow's time table ris kindda packed but i js like it so tht i won't b hiding in my room, refreshing all those bitter memories... i truely wanna surrender now... hope i'll gain more confidence n live happily afta this.... god bless!

raja n me relaxing at uitm 

raja n me 

me n azreena 

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